I am supposed to be working on my CV now and I thought I would upload a quick blog post about nothing really because this is one of my favourite ways to procrastinate. It has been a long time since I have written mainly because I have been so busy trying to get used to my job I think I sort of have the hang of things now but I still have a lot to learn. Ok I know how contradictory that sounds I hope you get my point though. I even have this work hard play hard thing kind of figured out. Although I think I played a little too hard this weekend I had one of those I’m never drinking again moments on Sunday :(.
In other unrelated news I got myself my first self-help book over a month ago and all I have read is a measly 25 pages (most of which I read on a combi ride on my way home from work.) This is really bad because usually depending on how busy I am I can get through at least two books a month. So anyway the story with this book is I wanted to read something that would help with my people skills. My people skills are horrible and I supervise three people which means I have to talk to them so I thought I would read a book (cause that is how I have been learning and I have proof that it works ) and learn people skills 😦 and I can’t even do that. Apparently the best way to learn people skills is to talk to and hang out with actual people, the trauma!!!! The sad thing is I promised myself that I wasn’t going to by a new book until I finished this one and I can’t break a promise I made to myself, that is the worst kind of disrespect ever: ( . So here is the plan I am going to read the book and blog about it I hope that works maybe someone else out there wants to know “The 5 Essential People Skills”.
Ok gotta go later…
There is something beautiful about having someone who can understand you without you having to explain yourself. However at the same time so many messages and words get lost in translation because so many people including yours truly sometimes find it hard to what they really want to say
I have heard it said that actions speak louder then words, but do we really have to put the people we care about through the stress of trying to decipher the coded messages that we attach to our actions? Is it fair that we assume that because they care about us they will be able to understand us? I think maybe it’s time we learnt to say what we want to say. Nothing more painful then being misunderstood by those you hold dear…
Heey!! *waves 🙂
Have you ever just felt like you need to be held. Not a two second hug but a hold like a proper cuddle. Some people are better at this holding thing then others but at the moment I don’t think I would be too picky about my holder if there is such a word… although I do have a particular person in mind. I have been asking myself for a while now how my crushes hugs feel … he looks like a good hugger lol!!
Anyway back to my need to be held, I usually feel like this when I spend too much time thinking about all the stuff I brush aside and never really want to think about. Like the fact that I am having such a hard time finding a proper job and how much my current internship is really a waste of time and how all the “brilliant” business ideas I ever come up have all been done before.. sigh.
This whole growing up thing is exhausting I think right now I am really struggling. I wonder how the rest of you do it. I know that things do not always go the way we want them to but its really nice to once in a while get thrown a young bone to brighten up your day and remind you that one day (hopefully soon) things will get better.
So yeah that me today …having a dark blue Monday. I am trying to do the whole list the things you are thankful for (well at least in my head) thing but its not helping or maybe I am not trying hard enough :(. Hopefully it all gets better soon …keep smiling and remember to hold those who need to be held.
The title of my post is a line from the song “Stay” by Rihanna ft Mikky Ekko. I have had on repeat all morning I’m just so in love with it. I am one of those people who can have songs and only listen to them months after downloading them so its currently my favourite song.
The beat, the lyrics , I love it all. I think the song speaks to me so much because its about something that I really want to experience. You know that crazy , passionate, intense kind of love. Where you almost feel like if something was to happen to the other person you would just go crazy or you would rather it happen to you. I have personally never experienced it but I know it exists because I have seen it. I think the thing with that kind of love is that both of you need to come to a point in the relationship where you are not afraid to vulnerable.
I always find it so difficult to just let go and not hold back a little you know let myself be “vulnerable”, I have an almost crippling fear of having my heart broken. Yeah I have been hurt but I have never had my heart broken, because like I said I always hold back a little just for control.
So next time I fall “in intense like” I’m not going to hold back I am going to go all the way and see what happens. I mean I am turning 25 soon I have to do these things whilst I am still young. For once “intensely like” with my heart more then with my head.
What inspired this post? I think I am “in like” and I am trying really hard not to let it get to intense like…lol OK maybe not too hard but I am trying not to try control how I feel you know use my heart more then my head. Right now all I know is that ” I want you to stay”.
P.S I haven’t posted in a while mostly because things have been a little crazy here at my place of internship. But today is somewhat calm so I get to procrastinate here and see what other people have been thinking about. My favourite thing about blogging is that I get to interact with people from far and wide and every time I am on here I learn something new or get inspired and it makes me so happy.
I’m typing from my not so smart phone today so please excuse my typos 😦 mkaay:)? Ok back to business.
My afternoon was sooo craaaaaaazy yesterday and I made so many mistakes at my place of internship *sigh. I really hate making mistakes I get so emotional about it and of course there is that embarrassment that comes with realising that you made a tonne of mistakes on something you proudly hand in. 😦 My supervisor didn’t really say much but I could tell he was irritated.
Making mistakes is part of the learning process they say … ‘how will you learn if you don’t make mistakes?’ they ask. I decided take their advice and accept that maybe its ok to make mistakes but not as many as I made yesterday. So thats what I am doing today working on learning from my mistakes even though they are the kind of mistakes one should not be making.
But like the UB40 song says ‘The more I learn the less I know about before ….’ so I am happy to learn.