So recently while scrolling through my Twitter timeline I came across a post from one of the people I follow , she talking about how she has been really struggling to find African bloggers. Then I remembered that I actually have a blog. Which I haven’t used in years (so glad WordPress didn’t throw it away). Anyway my point is if I had stuck to this like I was supposed to four years ago maybe just maybe I would be one of those bloggers. You know the ones with a pretty blog with lots of awesome content? So I’m back for another try going to work really hard to get this blog to the place I want it to get to. You know do the most as they say.
So what’s the plan you ask? Well here it is.
I’m not really sure what kind of blog I would like this to be. But I would really like to focus one or two things. I think once I have that figured out we can work on the content and making it more appealing and bloggy.
I’m learning how to sew …it is absolutely my new favourite thing to do so I might throw in a few of my adventures and misadventures every now and then. They fun I promise and sometimes even if it can be purely by accident I end making really cute items of clothing.
I still love books so I might do a little of that.
I’m turning 30 this year I’m supposed to be doing awesome things this whole year so maybe I will keep you posted.
I really need more money so I can all these awesome I’m turning 30 things so I need to find a way to make money so I can afford them.
My birthday is in September so I sort of have time.
Ok I’m rambling lets do this again tomorrow. Ok also that really wasn’t really a plan so lets it’s just a list. But it’s a start right?
This is a post I found in my drafts from almost four years ago … I have changed jobs but I still feel like this most days to be honest.
Oh my word I haven’t blogged in the longest time!! Life has been a little crazy, adjusting to my job that was new about 7 months ago. ( I can’t believe it has been 7 months since I started working). Anywhoo the job is challenging and hectic in fact, the first couple of months were so intense I think …ok I don’t think what I mean to say is I actually broke down a couple of times ( by break down I mean had a hectic cry) . 😦 I don’t know how normal that is for people who have just started working , but most of the time I felt like had been tossed in the deep end and swimming was getting pretty exhausting. I wont lie I wanted to quit a couple of times, I just felt like it was all too much for me to handle and no one had time to be explaining things to the new girl cause they already had enough on their plates as it is.
The one breakdown I had is kind of funny now that I think about it (notice that I say kind funny cause it is not old enough to be all the way funny I’m still a little scarred). So to get to my bosses office I have to make a short walk from one building to another. It’s not far but if you go up and down a couple of times a day it can get a tad annoying, On this particular day it had been raining and I was summoned to my bosses office, as I hurried there I jumped over a puddle and I jumped I heard the sound of cloth tearing as the slit at the back of my skirt tore and stopped just above my butt cheeks. I had already been having a bad day and my skirt tearing was the last thing I needed. I hurried back to the bathroom and burst into tears it was all I could think to do in that moment. To cut a long story short one of my colleagues had a needle and thread and I got to put my primary school home economics lessons to good use. The one lesson I learnt that day was don’t jump over puddles ever. They don’t design women’s office wear for such .
I am supposed to be working on my CV now and I thought I would upload a quick blog post about nothing really because this is one of my favourite ways to procrastinate. It has been a long time since I have written mainly because I have been so busy trying to get used to my job I think I sort of have the hang of things now but I still have a lot to learn. Ok I know how contradictory that sounds I hope you get my point though. I even have this work hard play hard thing kind of figured out. Although I think I played a little too hard this weekend I had one of those I’m never drinking again moments on Sunday :(.
In other unrelated news I got myself my first self-help book over a month ago and all I have read is a measly 25 pages (most of which I read on a combi ride on my way home from work.) This is really bad because usually depending on how busy I am I can get through at least two books a month. So anyway the story with this book is I wanted to read something that would help with my people skills. My people skills are horrible and I supervise three people which means I have to talk to them so I thought I would read a book (cause that is how I have been learning and I have proof that it works ) and learn people skills 😦 and I can’t even do that. Apparently the best way to learn people skills is to talk to and hang out with actual people, the trauma!!!! The sad thing is I promised myself that I wasn’t going to by a new book until I finished this one and I can’t break a promise I made to myself, that is the worst kind of disrespect ever: ( . So here is the plan I am going to read the book and blog about it I hope that works maybe someone else out there wants to know “The 5 Essential People Skills”.
Ok gotta go later…
There is something beautiful about having someone who can understand you without you having to explain yourself. However at the same time so many messages and words get lost in translation because so many people including yours truly sometimes find it hard to what they really want to say
I have heard it said that actions speak louder then words, but do we really have to put the people we care about through the stress of trying to decipher the coded messages that we attach to our actions? Is it fair that we assume that because they care about us they will be able to understand us? I think maybe it’s time we learnt to say what we want to say. Nothing more painful then being misunderstood by those you hold dear…
I’m not really sure at what point one becomes an expert at giving relationship advice. But seeing as all my single friends are always dishing it out, clearly it can’t be that hard. Right? With that in mind, I thought I’d share some relationship advice for those of you out there who are in the honeymoon stages of your relationship. Awwww, the honeymoon stage. Treasure it. It only goes south from there.
What I’ve found over the years is that relationships get a bit iffy when the parties involved begin to get too cosy with each other. I mean, for some of us, once we get that partner we’ve be searching for, all effort immediately stops. Who needs to shower…if they’ve found the love of their life right? Irrefutable logic I tell you.
But in actuality, that effort you put in when you were single, you should keep at least…
Have you ever just felt like you need to be held. Not a two second hug but a hold like a proper cuddle. Some people are better at this holding thing then others but at the moment I don’t think I would be too picky about my holder if there is such a word… although I do have a particular person in mind. I have been asking myself for a while now how my crushes hugs feel … he looks like a good hugger lol!!
Anyway back to my need to be held, I usually feel like this when I spend too much time thinking about all the stuff I brush aside and never really want to think about. Like the fact that I am having such a hard time finding a proper job and how much my current internship is really a waste of time and how all the “brilliant” business ideas I ever come up have all been done before.. sigh.
This whole growing up thing is exhausting I think right now I am really struggling. I wonder how the rest of you do it. I know that things do not always go the way we want them to but its really nice to once in a while get thrown a young bone to brighten up your day and remind you that one day (hopefully soon) things will get better.
So yeah that me today …having a dark blue Monday. I am trying to do the whole list the things you are thankful for (well at least in my head) thing but its not helping or maybe I am not trying hard enough :(. Hopefully it all gets better soon …keep smiling and remember to hold those who need to be held.
The title of my post is a line from the song “Stay” by Rihanna ft Mikky Ekko. I have had on repeat all morning I’m just so in love with it. I am one of those people who can have songs and only listen to them months after downloading them so its currently my favourite song.
The beat, the lyrics , I love it all. I think the song speaks to me so much because its about something that I really want to experience. You know that crazy , passionate, intense kind of love. Where you almost feel like if something was to happen to the other person you would just go crazy or you would rather it happen to you. I have personally never experienced it but I know it exists because I have seen it. I think the thing with that kind of love is that both of you need to come to a point in the relationship where you are not afraid to vulnerable.
I always find it so difficult to just let go and not hold back a little you know let myself be “vulnerable”, I have an almost crippling fear of having my heart broken. Yeah I have been hurt but I have never had my heart broken, because like I said I always hold back a little just for control.
So next time I fall “in intense like” I’m not going to hold back I am going to go all the way and see what happens. I mean I am turning 25 soon I have to do these things whilst I am still young. For once “intensely like” with my heart more then with my head.
What inspired this post? I think I am “in like” and I am trying really hard not to let it get to intense like…lol OK maybe not too hard but I am trying not to try control how I feel you know use my heart more then my head. Right now all I know is that ” I want you to stay”.
P.S I haven’t posted in a while mostly because things have been a little crazy here at my place of internship. But today is somewhat calm so I get to procrastinate here and see what other people have been thinking about. My favourite thing about blogging is that I get to interact with people from far and wide and every time I am on here I learn something new or get inspired and it makes me so happy.